http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/Sometimes the best strategy is being - or at least looking - busy. Wherever you are: at home, work, office or during happy hours... be busy gives value to your own profile. SO... WHEN SOMEONE COMES, LOOK BUSY!!!en-UKhttp://backend.userland.com/rss092http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/1f/bee05a567bee88b46cc45baa228cb2_160x200.jpg <p>after really long time no write, I wondered if someone had any interest on my own bloody blog - and was amazed, so many people clicked, by mistake, curiosity or just to double check if I was still alive... well sometimes I wish I weren't, but I'm nobody to decide what to do, or at least when this live ends...</p> <p>this is a relief, for myself, and I don't care if someone will read all this crap or not, because of my own life I couldn't care less - that is a big mistake, something I have started regretting for God sakes!!!</p> <p>well, I finish my dissertation, got a bloody B, who knows what this means... I'm fed up with so many things, I surely am... have no job (no wonder, since last January I haven't looked for one), no friends (neither here or in the old places I used to live), no help (to get out of this dark hole)... I want to scream, to cry out, to fight for what I want - but what I want, does this woman really want something or just to be sticked... how many Christmas wishes I received? not counting family? few, not enough to put me on track again... sometimes I wish I were no coward and finish with this all - put an end, of my own life... I have no bright side at this moment, and I'm weak to break up with myself, maybe that's a good point...</p> <p>bullets for life:<br> - self-esteem<br> - intelligence<br> - confidence<br> - passion<br> - friendship<br> - healthy<br> ...</p> <p>people take things for grant, things they should say thanks, not only sights and blame what it's not done... miss me, myself, my life, my identity... who am I? what am I doing here? what are the things that pride myself? sounds egocentric, doesn't it?</p> <p>this is my life... it's now or never, but I'm not gonna live forever... sorry bon jovi, it's not alright...</p> <p>Am I done or not?</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2008/01/14/things_i_dont_know~3573144/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2008/01/14/things_i_dont_know~3573144/Mon, 14 Jan 2008 03:32:27 +0100 <p>I've been avoiding this topic, but I believe that what I just read at <a href="http://news.sky.com/skynews/article/0,,91210-1287932,00.html"><a href="http://news.sky.com/skynews/article/0,,91210-1287932,00.html">http://news.sky.com/skynews/article/0,,91210-1287932,00.html</a></a> shocked me more than I could imagine, especially the very last paragraph:<br> <blockquote>"Until 2004, possession of child pornography was not an offence in the country unless the material was sold on."</p></blockquote> <p>So in Portugal, up to 2004 if you possessed an underage pornographic material, that would NOT be an offence? So having this kind of things could maybe seam like normal? That stimulates abuse, I cannot find something against this thought, it is unbelievable and shocking!!!</p> <p>Not surprisingly I've heard so many horrifying stories of child porn. I believe that only an abused child knows what that means and how horrible it is to be abused by elders, someone they think they can trust.</p> <p>Well, about Madeleine, I don't know what happened to her - I've been reading and following the news every single day, since the very first days (watching sky news and bbc news 24 in London). She is the major victim in this whole story. If is she still alive? We hope so. If hasn't she been harmed? We prefer to think so. All we know is that she vanished, kind of "beyond belief" story; I wish it was only fiction, not fact. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/10/11/poor_little_girl~3118916/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/10/11/poor_little_girl~3118916/Thu, 11 Oct 2007 12:22:48 +0200 <p>and I still need to revise the conclusion and synopsis...</p> <p>but at least I'm going somewhere... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/13/22_hours~2974818/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/13/22_hours~2974818/Thu, 13 Sep 2007 18:30:20 +0200 <p>can't believe - the nightmare is almost over!!! within the next 26 hours, I'm free!!!!!</p> <p>still have work to do, obviously, this is a never-ending work...</p> <p>thanks everyone that has supported me... I really appreciate!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/13/26_hours_to_go~2973453/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/13/26_hours_to_go~2973453/Thu, 13 Sep 2007 14:36:06 +0200 <blockquote><p> they let me be - alone & lonely for how long? it's high time to give life a break</p></blockquote> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/12/daily_question~2968866/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/12/daily_question~2968866/Wed, 12 Sep 2007 17:35:27 +0200 <p>I'm about to finish this awful dissertation that has consuming and demanding my time...</p> <p>well, still have to work, but it's high time to finish this race...</p> <p>at least I'm learning some Continental Portuguese with my supervisor... sometimes it's funny, whatever...</p> <p>I deserve what I fought for, don't I? So...</p> <p>Enjoy, even it is to laugh about me!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/11/final_speed~2959483/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/11/final_speed~2959483/Tue, 11 Sep 2007 01:35:20 +0200 <p>what would be the best? what are my dreams stick in?</p> <p>choose a picture and let me know, will be my return to daily posts</p> <p>well 4 days to go - 4 days to freedom!!!</p> <p><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1959038" title="Moon"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/038/1959038_6cff0b1326_t.jpeg" alt="Moon" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1959039" title="Sun"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/039/1959039_00c4244b8c_t.jpeg" alt="Sun" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/10/moon_or_sun~2956191/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/10/moon_or_sun~2956191/Mon, 10 Sep 2007 14:41:03 +0200 <p>what are the odds... feeling lonely again, need care, need a kiss, need a hug from the people I love...</p> <p>that's all... for today...</p> <p><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1959044" title="Hug"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/044/1959044_9738fbb705_s.jpeg" alt="Hug" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/10/~2953524/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/10/~2953524/Mon, 10 Sep 2007 03:14:29 +0200 <p>It appears that I'm almost done with this thesis... Just need to write limitations and overall conclusion...</p> <p>I'm scared, I wish I'm doing the right thing, can't stand the idea if I don't pass... Certainly I'm losing my sleep again... oh dear...</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/08/99_syndrome~2945305/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/08/99_syndrome~2945305/Sat, 08 Sep 2007 12:54:18 +0200 <p>apparently there is a light at the end of the tunnel...</p> <p>my supervisor likes my dissertation structure, I hope she also likes what I wrote, that is the most important...</p> <p>I had a dream tonight, two phases: the first I was expecting a baby and no-one told me so, I found out too late (because I continued to have periods), and the moment wasn't the best to have one... the second I was in serious trouble with my grades and failed, unbelievable, how come???</p> <p>is it a sign, or just instantaneous stress, because the thesis is due to 7 days only?</p> <p>by the way, my sister invited me to be godmother of her lovely daughter, I have to buy the ticket to get there, maybe this is the reason for dreaming with babies? I'm not prepared for having one!!! neither my other half!!! I'm telling, because I know...</p> <p>anyway, i wish you all a nice day!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/06/light_at_the_end_of_the_tunnel~2935221/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/06/light_at_the_end_of_the_tunnel~2935221/Thu, 06 Sep 2007 16:07:33 +0200 <p>Guys, I'm sick, what a time to be, hein?</p> <p>anyways, within 9 days I'm free of this thesis and probably healthier too...</p> <p>to sum up, my status today is hard to breath and migraine to complement, great start :-) </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/05/sick~2929031/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/05/sick~2929031/Wed, 05 Sep 2007 14:18:35 +0200 <p>it's unbelievable, it's one after the other - how come this have happened, sometimes I feel like I can't anymore...</p> <p>why not just stop all of this and end up? I feel like suicider of my own spirit, of my own light...</p> <p>i just dont understand the meaning of life, and the reason of (almost all) people's attitutes...</p> <p>better stop writing, don't have good things to write, probably until next week... for God sake... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/04/deception~2924893/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/04/deception~2924893/Tue, 04 Sep 2007 19:32:27 +0200 <p>Why kissing means more to women (http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/6975794.stm)</p> <p>A couple kissing: Men and Women view kissing differently<br> If a picture is worth a 1,000 words, so may be a kiss - or certainly to a woman anyway, researchers say.</p> <p>A New York State University team quizzed over 1,000 students, finding <strong>women place a big emphasis on kissing</strong>.</p> <p>They use kissing as a way of assessing the recipient as a potential partner, and later to <em>maintain intimacy</em> and to <em>check the status</em> of a relationship.</p> <p>But men placed less importance on it, using it to increase the likelihood of sex, Evolutionary Psychology reported.</p> <p>The questionnaires revealed <strong>men were less discriminating</strong> when it came to deciding who to kiss or who to have sex with.</p> <p>While both sexes participate in the adaptive benefits of kissing, we found sex differences when considering the pursuit of short-versus long-term mating strategies<br> Dr Gordon Gallup, lead researcher</p> <p>They were more willing to <u>have sex with someone without kissing</u>, to <u>have sex with someone they are not attracted to</u> and <u>agree to have sex with someone they considered to be a bad kisser</u>.</p> <p>But kissing was more important as a bonding mechanism to women.</p> <p><strong><em>In long-term relationships females not only rate kissing as more important than men, but they indicated that kissing was important throughout a relationship</em></strong>.</p> <p>Meanwhile, <u>men placed less importance on kissing as the relationship progresses</u>.</p> <p>There was also a difference in the sort of kisses the two sexes preferred, with men liking wet, tongue kisses.</p> <p>Lead researcher Dr Gordon Gallup said kissing had developed over time to become an essential part of the courtship process.</p> <p>But he added: "While both sexes participate in the adaptive benefits of kissing, we found sex differences when considering the pursuit of short- versus long-term mating strategies."</p> <p>Dr Glenn Wilson, an expert in relationships at London's Institute of Psychiatry, said: "Kissing is used by everyone as a bonding and testing mechanism.</p> <p><em>"But the fact is women are more discriminatory than men. Men can just go out and spread their seed, but women have to take more responsibility because of the consequences and so they are likely to want to test more."</em> </p> <blockquote><p><strong>SO WOMEN, IF YOU WANT MORE KISSES, YOU HAVE TWO CHOICES: BE A LESBIAN OR NEVER HAVE A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP!!!</strong></p></blockquote> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/03/so_kiss_me~2918374/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/03/so_kiss_me~2918374/Mon, 03 Sep 2007 18:33:48 +0200 <p>I believe that I have been so lonely because of this dissertation, the summer is almost gone and I have no job jet... I haven't looked for one seriously... after 13 Sept, the marathon starts, hope doesnt take too long - I feel stupid doing nothing, like my critical thinking is not working and that I'm waisting my precious time...</p> <p>time goes by and fast... dont want to get old, without a serious job, an amazing experience... dont want to regret what I could have done... life is just one, and one of a kind...</p> <p>today I finish with no questions, just giving a rest for our minds!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/03/~2918238/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/03/~2918238/Mon, 03 Sep 2007 18:09:48 +0200 <p>I'm very upset...</p> <p>I don't think I'll buy greeting cards anymore, I feel like stupid doing so, even though I like to receive them... it's about time to stop doing things that don't have a good return, so that will be one of the actions that unfortunately I have to take...</p> <p>Do you feel the same? I have so many sad things going on my mind now... whatever, who cares?</p> <p>Have you ever stop doing something you liked because it was making you sad? why things change? Is it worth? Or better keep doing? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/02/cards_what_for~2911611/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/09/02/cards_what_for~2911611/Sun, 02 Sep 2007 16:19:21 +0200 <p>Finally I just received my feedback from my supervisor, quite late, but still on time to make changes!!! I was just about to send what I did so far, if she took couple more hours, she would be surprised, will she be anyway?</p> <p>Need a break, on Friday I'm leaving to Aruba for 8 days, deserved break at the right time? Let's make it the right one, ok?</p> <p>Enjoy... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/23/feedback~2854155/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/23/feedback~2854155/Thu, 23 Aug 2007 00:14:18 +0200 <p>Just came back from a short walk to the library, where I could deliver couple of books and renew other ones.</p> <p>Fact from NYC - mad people get crazy all the time!!! After two horrible days of rain, today is kind of drizzle and on the road, remaining water earned by this pours insists not to leave...</p> <p>I decided then to grab a number two at McDonnalds: two cheeseburgers, fries and sprite. Crossing the road before its corner to save some time, I could smell the horrible water under my feet, oh my gosh!!!</p> <p>Hearing the cars approaching, moved back, away from that smelly-refused water and splash!!! Only one person, a well-dressed suit guy, was splashed out with that disgusting remained water... and to complete I shaked my head, in a reproved way... poor of the guy... I started laughing on my mind at the fast-food queue and when I turned to my right side he was over there, then I stopped!!!</p> <p>Am I too bad? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/22/water_splash~2852409/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/22/water_splash~2852409/Wed, 22 Aug 2007 18:33:42 +0200 <p>I wish I had finished my report, but no, still a long way to go - no that long now, but somehow, because I'm bored...</p> <p>So it's been my blog, I have so many to write, so few time: 20-dollar bill, holiday-time, unsoweitter.</p> <p>Have to start having better feelings and looking for a job!!! Need to find something soon, maximum by January I have to be working... let's see where I'm going... certainly doing something, somewhere, somehow!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/22/boring~2850761/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/22/boring~2850761/Wed, 22 Aug 2007 13:40:17 +0200 <p>I believe that the referencing part of my report is almost done (only 9 left), should finish really soon, my deadline is tomorrow, so I have 4 days to condense in a unique file. I have around 2000 words and my limit is 8000, so I guess I am in the right path?I intend to write no more than 6000, let's see...</p> <p>I still need to find a quote, last time I wrote 'freedom is the best feeling ever' (by Joseph Albert Van Sebroeck, my grandpa, a wonderful person that had so many difficulties to come over during the wars e afterwards)... keep thinking!!! Have less than three weeks!!!</p> <p>So, going relax a bit on the streets, it's amazingly chilly.</p> <p>Have a nice day? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/18/references_and_quote~2828700/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/18/references_and_quote~2828700/Sat, 18 Aug 2007 13:54:52 +0200 <p><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-WnjVUBDbs">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-WnjVUBDbs</a></p> <p>Modern Latin is so cool, I need to start learning more about it - this video is so medieval, I like it (apart from the kid in the end).</p> <p>The Mass - ERA</p> <p>Semper crescis<br> Aut decrescis<br> Vita detestabilis<br> Nunc obdurat<br> Et tunc curat<br> Ludo mentis aciem</p> <p>Nunc obdurat<br> Et tunc curat<br> Ludo mentis aciem<br> Egestatem<br> Potestatem<br> Dissolvit ut glaciem</p> <p>Divano<br> Divano re<br> Divano blessi<br> Divano blessia<br> Divano blessia<br> Divano<br> Divano re<br> Divano blessia<br> Divano blessia</p> <p>Sors salutis<br> Et virtutis<br> Michi nunc contraria<br> Est affectus<br> Et defectus<br> Semper in angaria<br> Hac in hora<br> Sine mora<br> Corde pulsum tangite</p> <p>Hac in hora<br> Sine mora<br> Corde pulsum tangite<br> Quod per sortem<br> Sternit fortem<br> Mecum omnes plangite </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/17/sempre_crescis_aut_decrecis~2824105/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/17/sempre_crescis_aut_decrecis~2824105/Fri, 17 Aug 2007 14:20:44 +0200 <p>I'm very surprised to find out that my classmates are starting the thesis now, while I'm doing all the hard work for weeks (3 weeks to be more precise). How can they left things for the very last minute, we have less than a month to complete and submit (something that I hate)</p> <p>Am I too precautious or normal person, given that I started in the middle, not at the end (we had 3 months to search, prepare and write).</p> <p>By the way, have a nice day, within four weeks, I'm free - I'm o holidays!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/15/surprised~2812230/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/15/surprised~2812230/Wed, 15 Aug 2007 13:08:40 +0200 <p>today I go to do biometrics, hope I can have a job soon!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/13/today_biometrics~2800833/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/13/today_biometrics~2800833/Mon, 13 Aug 2007 14:20:35 +0200 <p>finally it seams that I'm going somewhere, at least I started writing seriously, not so happy but I have to do it...</p> <p>hope within 2 weeks I'm done, let's see...</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/12/going_somewhere~2796547/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/12/going_somewhere~2796547/Sun, 12 Aug 2007 17:22:27 +0200 <p>S-L-E-E-P</p> <p>that's for sure, is colder, rainy and my bed makes me feel so comfy</p> <p>unfortunately that is not what I'm going to do, I have to keep writing, searching and feeding back my supervisor... and there is a slow maid that arrives within few minutes, probably that's the main reason I won't keep sleeping, to be very honest...</p> <p>what else could be perfect today to do? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/10/today_is_a_perfect_day_to~2786238/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/10/today_is_a_perfect_day_to~2786238/Fri, 10 Aug 2007 14:16:46 +0200 <p>have your say...</p> <p>now, what shall I do now?<br> - start writing seriously<br> - keep the search<br> - enjoy life<br> - have a nice sleep<br> - relax<br> - anything else? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/09/what_now~2783132/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/09/what_now~2783132/Thu, 09 Aug 2007 22:02:48 +0200 <p>I can't believe that this dissertation is driving me crazy...</p> <p>Guess what? I have to re-think in another interesting question, and I have NO idea, just NO idea...</p> <p>God Bless Me - I need an action and fast!!!</p> <p>Why this always happens to me?</p> <p>Anyways, better to come back to work, and it's hard if there is a wonderful sunshine outside... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/05/dissertation~2758964/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/05/dissertation~2758964/Sun, 05 Aug 2007 15:05:38 +0200 <p>I don't really know what is going on...</p> <p>I've felt sleepy and just want to sleep for the past two weeks - I can sleep as many as 14 hours in a roll, I believe that my sleeping problems changed now: from Insomnia to never ending sleep. Another factor that could add on it is that stressful moments interfered in the stressful hormone, and all of a sudden I started sleeping more and more and more.</p> <p>I also dreamt that I was pregnant, so it would be one of the reasons to justify why I am so sleepy. But as far as I know it is impossible, or really difficult to be - and it is not in my plans now to have a baby, probably in few years.</p> <p>Finally after so many months not having nice sleep, I can do it, not quality one, but I can sleep!!! Never thought I would write something like that...</p> <p>I need to finish my report and I need energy for that, please - my mind has to help me!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/01/sleepy~2738842/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/08/01/sleepy~2738842/Wed, 01 Aug 2007 15:56:19 +0200 <p>Just to update some news here:<br> In the first week of July I went to Prague. I have to write more about it later on.</p> <p><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lk8-Mm2oc_A">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lk8-Mm2oc_A</a></p> <p>Here it goes the complete file, all three days in just another cool Coldplay music</p> <p><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Px-GgSc4jLk">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Px-GgSc4jLk</a></p> <p>I don't know if I could add the youtube window, so I added the weblink... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/07/24/trip_to_praha~2691585/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/07/24/trip_to_praha~2691585/Tue, 24 Jul 2007 11:04:02 +0200 <p>I'm very confused and I don't know what to do...</p> <p>Can't be more specific now, I have to digest lots of stuff first and reconquer my temper...</p> <p>By the way, it's just more 8,000 words and I'm done with my Masters, can't believe it...</p> <p>Well, let's be more realistic before I start writing over and over again...</p> <p>What do people deserve? That is my very first question, so I can clarify all my doubts here... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/07/23/confused~2684140/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2007/07/23/confused~2684140/Mon, 23 Jul 2007 04:23:42 +0200 <p>I know that only few people would be interested in reading just another topic from millions a day that are published in the world.</p> <p>Why do they become interested? Something special or only casuality?</p> <p>Life is not difficult - life is not easy<br> we do whatever we want in life</p> <p>that is a really good question: what do you want?</p> <p>there are some expressions that are often said by losers:<br> I wish I had, I wish I were, I wish I would...</p> <p>I AM NOT A LOSER - there are tricking moments in life, that make you feel like one, but you are not!!!</p> <p>Autumn is almost gone - Winter is coming, Festives also - and unfortunately many responsibilities that I wanted to solve before xmas or at least quite after... So that is life: it is not what you want all the time.</p> <p>ok - I point out some things I want:</p> <p>- be succeed<br> - be happy<br> - have a job<br> - be recognised<br> - be loved<br> - have a car (I have never had before - I have no idea what it is)<br> - have a home (everything as I want there)<br> ...</p> <p>analysis: 3 real things and 4 personal achievements, if I can say that</p> <p>eu me sinto abandonada, triste, com o rumo perdido - nada melhor do que receber carinho quando se esta carente, mas nao doenca quando se esta doente (rs)</p> <p>you know what? I like questions - all my life is driven by them, is that right? challenge vs defy - I am not a rebell, but sometimes I dont know, it feels like my personality is changing by all problems faced, by all regrets realised</p> <p>I am tired - keep crying might be a good way to get sleep faster - who knows? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2006/12/01/life_is_not_being_good~1387925/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://look-busy.blog.co.uk/2006/12/01/life_is_not_being_good~1387925/Fri, 01 Dec 2006 00:39:03 +0100