it's unbelievable, it's one after the other - how come this have happened, sometimes I feel like I can't anymore...

why not just stop all of this and end up? I feel like suicider of my own spirit, of my own light...

i just dont understand the meaning of life, and the reason of (almost all) people's attitutes...

better stop writing, don't have good things to write, probably until next week... for God sake...