Look Busy

and I still need to revise the conclusion and synopsis...

but at least I'm going somewhere...

can't believe - the nightmare is almost over!!! within the next 26 hours, I'm free!!!!!

still have work to do, obviously, this is a never-ending work...

thanks everyone that has supported me... I really appreciate!!!

they let me be - alone & lonely for how long? it's high time to give life a break

I'm about to finish this awful dissertation that has consuming and demanding my time...

well, still have to work, but it's high time to finish this race...

at least I'm learning some Continental Portuguese with my supervisor... sometimes it's funny, whatever...

I deserve what I fought for, don't I? So...

Enjoy, even it is to laugh about me!!!

what would be the best? what are my dreams stick in?

choose a picture and let me know, will be my return to daily posts

well 4 days to go - 4 days to freedom!!!

what are the odds... feeling lonely again, need care, need a kiss, need a hug from the people I love...

that's all... for today...

It appears that I'm almost done with this thesis... Just need to write limitations and overall conclusion...

I'm scared, I wish I'm doing the right thing, can't stand the idea if I don't pass... Certainly I'm losing my sleep again... oh dear...

apparently there is a light at the end of the tunnel...

my supervisor likes my dissertation structure, I hope she also likes what I wrote, that is the most important...

I had a dream tonight, two phases: the first I was expecting a baby and no-one told me so, I found out too late (because I continued to have periods), and the moment wasn't the best to have one... the second I was in serious trouble with my grades and failed, unbelievable, how come???

is it a sign, or just instantaneous stress, because the thesis is due to 7 days only?

by the way, my sister invited me to be godmother of her lovely daughter, I have to buy the ticket to get there, maybe this is the reason for dreaming with babies? I'm not prepared for having one!!! neither my other half!!! I'm telling, because I know...

anyway, i wish you all a nice day!!!

Guys, I'm sick, what a time to be, hein?

anyways, within 9 days I'm free of this thesis and probably healthier too...

to sum up, my status today is hard to breath and migraine to complement, great start :-)

it's unbelievable, it's one after the other - how come this have happened, sometimes I feel like I can't anymore...

why not just stop all of this and end up? I feel like suicider of my own spirit, of my own light...

i just dont understand the meaning of life, and the reason of (almost all) people's attitutes...

better stop writing, don't have good things to write, probably until next week... for God sake...

Why kissing means more to women (http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/6975794.stm)

A couple kissing: Men and Women view kissing differently
If a picture is worth a 1,000 words, so may be a kiss - or certainly to a woman anyway, researchers say.

A New York State University team quizzed over 1,000 students, finding women place a big emphasis on kissing.

They use kissing as a way of assessing the recipient as a potential partner, and later to maintain intimacy and to check the status of a relationship.

But men placed less importance on it, using it to increase the likelihood of sex, Evolutionary Psychology reported.

The questionnaires revealed men were less discriminating when it came to deciding who to kiss or who to have sex with.

While both sexes participate in the adaptive benefits of kissing, we found sex differences when considering the pursuit of short-versus long-term mating strategies
Dr Gordon Gallup, lead researcher

They were more willing to have sex with someone without kissing, to have sex with someone they are not attracted to and agree to have sex with someone they considered to be a bad kisser.

But kissing was more important as a bonding mechanism to women.

In long-term relationships females not only rate kissing as more important than men, but they indicated that kissing was important throughout a relationship.

Meanwhile, men placed less importance on kissing as the relationship progresses.

There was also a difference in the sort of kisses the two sexes preferred, with men liking wet, tongue kisses.

Lead researcher Dr Gordon Gallup said kissing had developed over time to become an essential part of the courtship process.

But he added: "While both sexes participate in the adaptive benefits of kissing, we found sex differences when considering the pursuit of short- versus long-term mating strategies."

Dr Glenn Wilson, an expert in relationships at London's Institute of Psychiatry, said: "Kissing is used by everyone as a bonding and testing mechanism.

"But the fact is women are more discriminatory than men. Men can just go out and spread their seed, but women have to take more responsibility because of the consequences and so they are likely to want to test more."

SO WOMEN, IF YOU WANT MORE KISSES, YOU HAVE TWO CHOICES: BE A LESBIAN OR NEVER HAVE A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP!!!

I believe that I have been so lonely because of this dissertation, the summer is almost gone and I have no job jet... I haven't looked for one seriously... after 13 Sept, the marathon starts, hope doesnt take too long - I feel stupid doing nothing, like my critical thinking is not working and that I'm waisting my precious time...

time goes by and fast... dont want to get old, without a serious job, an amazing experience... dont want to regret what I could have done... life is just one, and one of a kind...

today I finish with no questions, just giving a rest for our minds!!!

I'm very upset...

I don't think I'll buy greeting cards anymore, I feel like stupid doing so, even though I like to receive them... it's about time to stop doing things that don't have a good return, so that will be one of the actions that unfortunately I have to take...

Do you feel the same? I have so many sad things going on my mind now... whatever, who cares?

Have you ever stop doing something you liked because it was making you sad? why things change? Is it worth? Or better keep doing?